and I can't
I'm trying to write a Heritage paper
and I can't
I cried before
I didn't get the job
I got into an accident going home from my great grandma's
it was in my grandmother's car
I got $110.47 citation for irresponsive driving
I was rushing
I wanted to be there for my friend
even though I didn't believe in what she was doing
I have about $70 to my name
and a $25 Shopko giftcard
I am trying to support myself
and I am trying to keep a relationship work over distance
and I can't
I cried before
because I didn't get the job
and I have less than $100 to make stretch
and travel
and I keep eating
because I can't focus
and I can't
I can't
can't

money is what makes our nation work
you can't survive in this nation without money
that is why I worry about money
but I hate money

I want to move to a quiet little house, blue, with a white picket fence
I want to be happy
but I am afraid that every choice is wrong
because everyone keeps doubting my answers
and none of their thoughts matter
two people's thoughts matter
mine
his
that's it
but I keep hearing everyone elses
and I can't
stop spinning in circles